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Wednesday, June 30th, 2010

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    12:53a
    They sat so much longer than usual in the...
    They sat so much longer
    than usual in the dining-parlour, that she was sure they must be
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    talking of her; and when tea at last brought them away, and she was
    to be seen by Edmund again, she felt dreadfully guiltyHe came to
    her, sat down by her, took her hand, and pressed it kindly; and at
    that moment she thought that, but for the occupation and the scene
    which the tea-things afforded, she must have betrayed her emotion
    in some unpardonable excess
    He was not intending, however, by such action, to be conveying
    to her that unqualified approbation and encouragement which her
    hopes drew from itIt was designed only to express his participation
    in all that interested her, and to tell her that he had been hearing
    what quickened every feeling of affectionHe was, in fact, entirely
    on his father’s side of the questionHis surprise was not so great as
    his father’s at her refusing Crawford, because, so far from supposing
    her to consider him with anything like a preference, he had always
    believed it to be rather the reverse, and could imagine her to be
    taken perfectly unprepared, but Sir Thomas could not regard the
    connexion as more desirable than he didIt had every recommendation
    to him; and while honouring her for what she had done
    under the influence of her present indifference, honouring her in
    rather stronger terms than Sir Thomas could quite echo, he was
    most earnest in hoping, and sanguine in believing, that it would be
    a match at last, and that, united by see by chloe bags mutual affection, it would appear
    that their dispositions were as exactly fitted to make them blessed
    in each other, as he was now beginning seriously to consider them
    Crawford had been too precipitateHe had not given her time to
    attach herselfHe had begun at the wrong endWith such powers
    as his, however, and such a disposition as hers, Edmund trusted that
    everything would work out a happy conclusionMeanwhile, he saw
    enough of Fanny’s embarrassment to make him scrupulously guard
    against exciting it a second time, by any word, or look, or movement
    Crawford called the next day, and on the score of Edmund’s return,
    Sir Thomas felt himself more than licensed to ask him to stay
    dinner; it was really a necessary complimentHe staid of course,
    and Edmund had then ample opportunity for observing how he
    sped with Fanny, and what degree of immediate encouragement for
    him might be extracted from her manners; and it was so little, so
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    very, very little—every chance, every possibility of it, resting upon
    her embarrassment only; if there was not hope in her confusion,
    there was hope in nothing else—that he was almost ready to wonder
    at his friend’s perseveranceFanny was worth it all; he held her
    to be worth every effort of patience, every exertion of mind, but he
    did not think he could have gone on himself with any woman breathing,
    without something more to warm his courage than his eyes
    could discern in hersHe was very willing to hope that Crawford
    saw clearer, and omega geneve this was the most comfortable conclusion for his
    friend that he could come to from all that he observed to pass before,
    and at, and after dinner
    In the evening a few circumstances occurred which he thought
    more promisingWhen he and Crawford walked into the drawingroom,
    his mother and Fanny were sitting as intently and silently at
    work as if there were nothing else to care forEdmund could not
    help noticing their apparently deep tranquillity
    “We have not been so silent all the time,” replied his mother
    “Fanny has been reading to me, and only put the book down upon
    hearing you coming And sure enough there was a book on the
    table which had the air of being very recently closed: a volume of
    Shakespeare“She often reads to me out of those books; and she
    was in the middle of a very fine speech of that man’s—what’s his
    name, Fanny?—when we heard your footsteps
    Crawford took the volume“Let me have the pleasure of finishing
    that speech to your ladyship,” said he“I shall find it immediately
    And by carefully giving way to the inclination of the leaves, he did
    find it, or within a page or two, quite near enough to satisfy Lady
    Bertram, who assured him, as soon as he mentioned the name of
    Cardinal Wolsey, that he had got the very speechNot a look or an
    offer of help had Fanny given; not a syllable for or againstAll her
    attention was for her workShe seemed determined to be interested
    by nothing elseBut taste was too strong in herShe could not abstract
    her mind five minutes: she was forced cartier ronde to listen; his reading
    was capital, and her pleasure in good reading extremeTo good reading,
    however, she had been long used: her uncle read well, her cousins
    all, Edmund very well, but in MrCrawford’s reading there was
    a variety of excellence beyond what she had ever met withThe
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    King, the Queen, Buckingham, Wolsey, Cromwell, all were given
    in turn; for with the happiest knack, the happiest power of jumping
    and guessing, he could always alight at will on the best scene, or the
    best speeches of each; and whether it were dignity, or pride, or tenderness,
    or remorse, or whatever were to be expressed, he could do
    it with equal beautyIt was truly dramaticHis acting had first taught
    Fanny what pleasure a play might give, and his reading brought all
    his acting before her again; nay, perhaps with greater enjoyment,
    for it came unexpectedly, and with no such drawback as she had
    been used to suffer in seeing him on the stage with Miss Bertram
    Edmund watched the progress of her attention, and was amused
    and gratified by seeing how she gradually slackened in the needlework,
    which at the beginning seemed to occupy her totally: how it
    fell from her hand while she sat motionless over it, and at last, how
    the eyes which had appeared so studiously to avoid him throughout
    the day were turned and fixed on Crawford—fixed on him for minutes,
    fixed on him, in short, till the attraction drew Crawford’s upon
    her, and the book was closed, and the charm was brokenThen black spy bag she
    was shrinking again into herself, and blushing and working as hard
    as ever; but it had been enough to give Edmund encouragement for
    his friend, and as he cordially thanked him, he hoped to be expressing
    Fanny’s secret feelings too
    “That play must be a favourite with you,” said he; “you read as if
    you knew it well
    “It will be a favourite, I believe, from this hour,” replied Crawford;
    “but I do not think I have had a volume of Shakespeare in my hand
    before since I was fifteenI once saw Henry the Eighth acted, or I
    have heard of it from somebody who did, I am not certain which
    But Shakespeare one gets acquainted with without knowing howIt
    is a part of an Englishman’s constitutionHis thoughts and beauties
    are so spread abroad that one touches them everywhere; one is intimate
    with him by instinctNo man of any brain can open at a good
    part of one of his plays without falling into the flow of his meaning
    immediately
    “No doubt one is familiar with Shakespeare in a degree,” said
    Edmund, “from one’s earliest yearsHis celebrated passages are
    quoted by everybody; they are in half the books we open, and we all
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    talk Shakespeare, use his similes, and describe with his descriptions;
    but this is totally distinct from giving his sense as you gave itTo
    know him in bits and scraps is common enough; to know him pretty
    thoroughly is, perhaps, not uncommon; but to read him well aloud
    is no everyday talent
    “Sir, you do me honour,” was Crawford’s answer, with a bow of
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    1:44a
    She saw the soldiers hustling Camena di Chiara...
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    Tigana had been a single pulsebeat away from coming back into the worldThe pulsebeat of Brandin that the crossbow would have ended
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    The shivering started once moreFussing and murmuring, Scelto built up the fire and brought yet another blanket for her knees and feetWhen he saw the tears on her face he made a queer helpless sound of distressSomeone knocked loudly on her door sometime later and she heard Scelto driving them away with language she had never known him to use before
    Gradually, very slowly, she began to pull herself togetherFrom the color of the light that gently drifted down through the high windows she knew that the afternoon would be waning towards duskShe rubbed her cheeks and eyes with the backs of her handsShe had to be ready when twilight came; twilight was when Brandin sent to the black and white chanel sai

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